Sunday, January 22, 2006

Dear Will,
A year without you. It hardly seems possible. Maybe because we're never really without you. You remain central in our lives and hearts, everywhere we go and in everything we do. You gave us a preview of life as Mom and Dad, taught us patience, worry, joy and love as we'd never known it before. And now you've sent us Edward, perhaps to ease the blow of this anniversary but certainly to love and treasure as much as we love and treasure you.

No one can ever take your place. Nothing will ever make us forget. The mere thought of this date, January 22, conjures the emotions as if not a minute had passed in the iterim. I still see your face. I still hear the doctors. I still see myself holding you, staring at you, wondering how I might go on without you, knowing that letting you go was the only way to end your pain. Our hearts still ache for you and always will.

No one ever called you "big" until you became a "big brother." Edward will always know you are near, watching out for him, cheering him, laughing with him, loving him as we love him and love you. We're a family in so many ways beyond the visible. Others may not see it, but you are with us always, giving us wisdom, reminding us of what is important. We'll keep you close this day and all days.


Tuesday, January 03, 2006

When the Lord closes a door, somewhere he opens a window.

I'm not sure where this originated, but I associate it with the movie The Sound of Music, which I watched over and over as a child and still love today. It came to mind tonight as I was up late with the ray of light shining through that window.

Some readers of this blog may not know that the window opened for us around Memorial Day when we discovered, quite to our surprise, that we were expecting another child. Will's brother Edward Jesse Kenyon was born on Christmas Day. He has brought new light to our lives but also reminds us of all we lost when Will died. This blog is the story of Will's life and ours with him, and now Edward is part of that story as well. We'll be sure he knows all about his brave, strong brother who will always look out for him as he has for us this year.